Perpendicular and Parallel (People)

The past couple of weeks have been super duper full of newness, in situations especially, and some confusion. Some frustration. Peace. Joy.
I feel like I'm in a place where if I tried to retrace my steps I would find no bridge. I just can't go back to the way things were. But I can pull away if I get the word. I feel like I'm doing what God wants me to do, though not well. Far from perfectly. It's so good to realize that. So good. I am not perfect. But I want to do things His way.
And since I feel like I'm actually waging war, pressing, pushing, fighting, I think that in these kinda situations and places-growth. I am trying to be careful, to gaurd my heart. I had a really good conversation about that a couple days ago. I need to be aware of what is going on in my own heart. Be aware of where I am leaning, be aware of hinderances, be aware of distractions, i believe this. I want a pure heart. And clean hands, lips. I want to be innocent, but I want to be wise. I don't wanna to just give into things because it's more comfortable than fighting.
I am the Lord's. No matter where I go, I am the Lord's. No matter the mistakes, I am His. I choose Him. I want to be sealed. The end. It is decided. I am His, He is mine, and that settles it. Forever. Completely.

Now, time for a silly song:

"I am a street, you are a street
we're parallel lines- we never meet,
just sit side by side, wondering why.
I think I know..."

you are my peace.

Soon the day will come when I will hear the doorbell ring and some scruffy man will hand me a package, as he walks back to his brown UPS truck I will burst into smiles for my CAMERA LENS IS HERE!!

...but that day was not yesterday, or the day before. it's pretty much been a whole month or more. arg.

LHOP:
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My parents and taylor&I split up. They went one way in the woods and we went another. It took lots of effort for me to be quiet when he climbed out on those rotting trees over freezeing water. I'm not being ridiculous in letting him make his own decisions in those things after I warn him. I'm not his mother & plus: he's taller than me. I like to lead and it is hard for me to not tell him what to do sometimes. because sometimes I just need to let him go...
It was a wonderful weekend. I love the monastary. commuinity living, it's smell, evensong, morningsong, salad, candles, leaves, lots of halls and rooms, and IHOP feed.
On Friday night from 9:30pmish-12:00am I found a quiet little room with big windows looking out on swirling leaves, trees, and yellow lights and played my guitar&worshiped. it was one of my favorite moments.
I have eaten over a dozen pieces of sushi in the last couple of days. no lie. vegtable sushi is so yummy.



"wow. I have REALLY enjoyed this conversation about bugs. I'M SERIOUS."
-Joseph Barackaman.

you, you are my peace.

some more writin's :)

V1
your words trip me up
they bind me and they snare
they catch me unprepared
so why do i even dare-
speak

V2
your words scatter on the floor in front of me
and you gather them up haistily
with honest bursts of apologies
you stuff them in your pockets like no one sees
but I...do

bridge
I've been thinkin' you're the kinda man
who could watse his life on drugs and war
I've been thinkin' you're the type
who finds it easy to ignore
those who can't fight for themselves anymore
but you proved me wrong

Chorus
you can keep looking
you can keep looking
you can search the whole house out
but you won't find the thing you've been talking about
with wide eyes.

tag
and oh, there is hope
there is hope
and there is love
and there is peace. for your soul.

anyway!..:]
I'm going to the monastary/LHOP for an oklahoma couple of days this week so i might not be able to come to the crane's christmas party :(
The teaching at crossfire last Saturday was amazing!
: "if you keep focousing on your own preformance as a Christian you will not get any better.
serving from a willing heart because you love Him is BEAUTIFUL.
serving from oblagation is..well...disgusting. "

-complements of jonathan zook :]

I find that when I tell the Lord the things that I am grateful for I become more grateful & thankful & maybe a little more humble.

Oh, here is something I've been writing about a certian two people I know...:)

"I have no money
and you have no money
but let's just get married!
...and live in a shack!"