Beautiful

**A big long drink of normal conversation
& a strech to touch your eyes
as you fingers wrap around this old cracked glass
and I cring at the future and deny the past
there are holes in your gloves
as you sip my processing down
like a drug

& i am inclined to let you be inclined to this
'cause i've strugged though your fog and mist so long
that i just wanna give in to your kiss.

oh, you love me and it hurts
'cause you love me outside of words
and you grind me down
like powder into the ground
and it hurts,
and it hurts,
and it hurts,
you're outside of words.
I will press
as i learn
as i learn
to love you outside of words*


ah, i love to write. :)

thoughts*

"you love me enough to hurt me,
you love me enought to chase me"

*I am out in a desperate quest to save my own life, not willing to lose it.
*Giving your life to the Lord is not something you do once, but everyday.
*There is joy in the realization that I'm not meant to live for myself. joy!

this is gooood. :)

mmmm.

pretty much it.

:)

little girls with pigtails.

Love songs keep coming out of me & I don't know where from.

I really have not gotten the hang of my nikon. I've become aware of the fact that I can still take better pictures with my four megapixille point&shoot.







That is my (new) ukulele. Nat & I made a wonderful barter and now it is mine. I am very happy with it. I love insturments. I am thinking about getting a djembe (um...for Christmas :)
Somehow Bethany & Joe have become the best c.d. makers I know of.

The Ascent was this weekend & it was amazing!! I LOVE hour long rides in a full fifteen-passenger van! I came back having this immense peace and fullness. I felt like it was a time to just sit before the Lord and enjoy Him. He enjoys it.
There was one moment during one of the two-hour Brandon Willet worship sessions when I saw this little five-year-old-looking girl with brown pig-tails and a tiny little back pack. She was waving a little silver banner around and she reminded me of me & who I want to be. I want to trust like a child. I want to know my Father. Anyways, enjoying the fluttering of her beautiful little banner she ran in one big circle around the entire room with a huge grin on her face. It was one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen in my life.
I want to be like that. honest before him. not being ditracted. worshiping him WHOLEHEARTEDLY. ah!

I have a hope and a future. WAHOO!!!
:)

& I will leave you with this...

"lights that flicker, like the hope in the hearts of the bitter
you and I both know that it's only a wisper
but it gives me chills like a scream in the night
or your cheap bought thrills that creep in and squeeze your will tight.
I think we both know the way it goes
I think we've both seen the way that it goes
when you let it."

I have been listening to Jon Foreman for the past three hours. mmm.

Amy Winehouse & Photography

I was watching interviews of John Mark McMillan & that is how I found this. :)

www.Amywinehouse.com
watch the video at the bottom right.
I don't know why i love it, but it do.

yep. & the ascent is tonight, i'm super excited. And maybe Natalie will finally give me her ukulele. I'm thinking about buying a djembe and harmonica too. :)

It was so foggy and amazing this morning. mmm.
I need to go do geometry. goodbye you.

Sunglasses&boots

http://www.urbanoutfitters.com/urban/catalog/productdetail.jsp?itemdescription=true&itemCount=10&startValue=11&selectedProductColor=&sortby=&id=14680755&parentid=W_ACC_SUNGLASSES&sortProperties=+product.marketingPriority,-product.startDate&navCount=21&navAction=poppushpush&color=



Somehow I just know you want to buy these sunglasses for me. :)
(in navy blue)

p.s. they're $7

"oh, you are good and you do more than I ever could- ask you for, all your ways are just and true, every thing you do is in love "

I was writing today :)

It wouldn't let me remove this picture from my blog, so enjoy. pretty amazing, huh?

How interesting and exciting is this blog post? Let me tell you, it's ridiculous. :))

-jasminemarie

The problem with michael soto and canoes

Mmmm. John Mark McMillan music. :)
All of his songs are so well put together, it seems, he's worked hard at perfecting his trade.
I love how his music is so definite, it is really him and not very much of anyone else.
& It's frustrating when I listen to a c.d and I can't tell the songs apart because it all one blur of electric guitars and rhymes. You know what I mean?

So, Laci lea is coming home soon. I am excited...yes, I am!

I let my heart worry so much, I want to be quiet. I want to rest & to know that God's okay with me. What he really thinks of me, I am blind.

(p.s. I really desire to be more tender & gentle, really.)

Number one.
He touches my heart in ways that no one else knows how.

I'm not sure what it is with me and blogs, but I really like to talk about Jesus!

I wrote something I really liked the other day. It has been hard for me to write recently.
Sarah Atwood needs to write more songs, because I love them.

So, I'm thinking for my birthday (January- but I could have it some other, warmer, month) I want to have tons of people over at night and have a fire in my backyard and roast things & have guitars, canoes, talking & games. I think it would be amazing to go canoeing in the dark- though I am afraid of what michael soto would do in the dark with a canoe. ;) I don't want people ramming into each other in the dark when the water is freezing! That would actually be pretty horrible...
All this to say: i want your ideas!
(p.s. it is my sixteenth, it needs to be special!)

jasminemarie

Jackets from France.

So, i think my $300 lens is broken. yippie.
I was with Sarah & I pretty much dropped it from three whole inches off the ground, who knew? but I still took this wonderful picture today. :)

You know how I am usually happy? Well, i am not happy right now.
heh, i think that Lord is trying to teach me to trust him not just in my heart with seasons but with this kinda stuff. it hurts.

I am SO thankful that the camera itself is not broken though.


-but enough of that.


I had several good conversations today. Yes, they made my heart smile.
& Melody is amazing.




"Cool jackets from France are attractive"
-s.a.