a wishing well and a red bike

"You're my cave to hide in,
my cliff to climb."

-psalms 31:3

I am a samuel. set apart before i was born.

I am learning alot. of hard things. which are hard to learn. ah. hard things grow you and change you. and in awesome ways if you do it with God.

I will take myself, set myself before the Lord, set my mind upon the Lord and he will change me. I will drink in deeply of his love; i am the cavern that he fills; i am the gap that he fits into; i am a garden enclosed on all sides by Him. i want Him to align my will with His. Like parallel lines.

i have seen places in my heart were my focus has slipped and He wants to change that. AWESOME..

*don't push through things you don't feel comfortable with, or do feel conviction about. (i.e. movies, music)

woot. yes.


p.s. i want a red bike.

Roller Coasters

I feel like i am going to fall over in my chair...right now. exactly. this moment.

If you haven't ever before i recomend looking out for the little ways God shows his love to you. He knows you perfectly. There is nothing else he could know about you. Nothing is hidden. Nothing is secret. He does lots of sweet little things that fit like keys into the caverns of my heart. It's beautiful. Watch for them. He's totally wanting and trying to get your attention.

p.s. I rode a rollercoaster for the first time todayx5

eyes.

several things i recomend:

-The album Kingdom Within by The Collector, especially the songs: Dancin' Alone, Awakening, When Rocks Hum, and The Butterfly Collector.

-Reading the psalms in The Message.

-Leaning on Jesus in moments when you want to lean into other people to find affirmation or whatever it is.

-Not drinking vitamin water anymore (i've wasted too much money on finding one that actually tastes good). If it's yummy to you, then i am amazed.


So, i am called and allowed to be myself, the way God made me, and if other people don't accept me that way then i don't need to worry about changing myself (or be frusterated with them). I just need to let it go. After being healed from this, i feel such a big chunk of worry missing from my day. It's so nice. God will provide companions for me and i don't need to go off on a plight change myself in order to gain friend in that backwards way.

-wake up and worry, i just wake up and worry, about how i could do this better
wake up and worry, i just wake up and worry, about how i could love you better

'cause i'm still shaking like the lights across the water
as i'm fumbling the change others bought my little heart for
and it's true, there is not much left for You..
down crooked streets and winding halls, endless allys, handlaid walls
well, anything for you, anything will do

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Your face is like the sun shining in the middle of the day, causing my heavily locked doors to fall into decay.

breakin'

Hello all!
several have recently commented on my lack of bloggage. I would like to notify you that a couple weeks i decided(felt that God was directing me to that. i don't understand him often, but i trust him) to take a month long break from this. So- that's what is up. I've got about a week and a half/two weeks left of that. So, don't worry; i'm not gone forever.

But I'll just say a little something here:

Trust God from the bottom of your heart
don't try to figure out everything on your own

listen for god's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go
He's the one who will keep you on track.
don't assume you know it allll.
run to God! run from evil!
Your body will glow with health
your very bones will vibrate with life.
Honor God with everything you own;
give him your first and best.


But don't, dear friend, resent God's discipline;
don't sulk under his loving correction.
it's the child he loves that God corrects;
a father's delight is behind all this.






why yes, that is the bible. ;)
(proverbs3message.)